Ugh.

I have a 3-second attention span right now, so this isn't going to be long.  I'm having difficulties with the Abilify I started approximately a month ago.  I am constantly restless, unable to focus (even with Adderall), and sleep...lol...what's that?  I haven't gotten a good night's rest in days.  BUT I'm doing well emotionally. Other than being bored because nothing holds my attention, I feel better.  Multiple people are telling me that the Abilify isn't worth the side effect, but I feel that others have the right to make that statement.  I am not ripping people's heads off or screaming every 5 minutes anymore so I'd say that the positive far outweighs the negative.  And if I never wanna sleep again, that's my choice, right? :D 

My summer course is over (with a B+!) and now I can breathe for a while.  My focus now (when available) is on Tarot.  I have developed a fascination with card reading.  The Tarot has shown me more than I thought it possibly could, and it has opened up an avenue of hope within me that has lifted my spirits.  I no longer feel as though my life is going no where despite working my ass off constantly.  It feels fucking awesome.

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